So Long 2009

So Here I am, New Years Eve literally my favorite "holiday" of the year. I think it is such an amazing time to reflect and look back on the previous year. SO much has happened in 2009 I cant even believe it...Another wonderful year with Frank to start it off...Moving to Syracuse was such a hard adjustment for me in the beginning. It was hard leaving my job i loved, my friends i loved, our apartment,and of course  my family especially my momma. I soon realized that it didn't matter as long as Frank and I had each other, it was always going to be Just us....After I got over my miscarriage in 2008, we both were so excited and nervous about getting pregnant again. It was a hard experience for me to deal with and I wasn't sure if i was emotionally ready to handle it yet....but God works in Amazing ways and Frank and I are soooo blessed and so thankful for a healthy pregnancy. Another highlight of my 2009 , was Definitely, August 29! Our wonderful beautiful wedding day. It was everything I ever wanted in a wedding ( Thanks momma and John!)...and I have never been more sure of anything ever in my whole life than the day I married Frank. Words cannot describe how much I love him, How wonderful our marriage is, and how great of a father he is going to be!.... Bring on 2010 , Im so excited to see what this will entail, and I know the most exciting part will be the birth of our beautiful boy Carter....

I cant believe another year has gone by filled with amazing vacations, exciting news throughout the year and many more memories!

Syracuse Orange

Im going to my first Su Basketball game....Im wondering if any of my old Su Close will fit, probably not..good thing I now fit in franks :)

Look for us on Tv we got awesome seats :)

Chin

...Frank called me and said, they put his kitty shit chin down today. hes had that cat since he was about 10 or 11years old. I feel awful, the cat was sooo skinny and sick and I didnt really like picking it up or touching it...and now shes gone. I should have spent more time with her instead of being so scared I was going to make her worse. Frank is so sad. Its awful to loose a pet. I cant imagine being attached to more than one animal at a time and loosing them. I have my bronxy, and words cannot describe how much I love him, I couldnt imagine how I would feel if any thing happened to him. But shit-chin was just about 13 years, what a good long life for an indoor/outdoor cat, and im glad someone was there with her. Shes not in pain any more and im sure she's up there chasing all the mice she wants! I always said she was adorable, and that she was.... she was black and white, her face was all black and had this little patch of white on her chin, how appropriate to name her shit-chin :) we thought she was getting healthly, she was so hungry towards the end, Endulging in 10 plus cans of wet food a day, meowing this pathetic meow to everyone until they fed her....in the end, I think she was just to sick...

we will miss you pretty little kitty.... you never were mean to me, Thats why I always let you sleep on our bed :)

How many weeks left!? :)

mmmmm English muffins have been totally hitting the spot for me every morning....and fruit loops! Ive been trying to do better with what im eating, or should I say the AMOUNT of food I am eating....but im pretty sure the damage is done...I started at 115 lbs pre pregnancy weight, and now im 175 lbs...yes, thats how much my husband weighs! Its gunna be crunch time to get back into shape after this baby!

Im excited , Beyond excited for this baby. I cant wait to see what he looks like, to touch his cute little baby face!... I think this kid is going to be kissed and hugged and held wayyyyyy to much... I mean I hold my cat bronx like a baby, and rock him to sleep every day 10 times a day...I cant imagine how im gunna be when Carter arrives!

I cant remember how it felt to not be pregnant, I know that sounds so crazy but ive literally felt so preganant for so long, and I have had this baby move, kick, hiccup, flip all around my belly for months now, its going to be so weird not feeling that every day, not having him wherever I go every day, and no that hes okay. Maybe this is what it will feel like when every one says you WILL miss being pregnant..... maybe I will....I do enjoy many parts of being pregnant...I love the attention :), I love love love maternity clothes, I love feeling my baby move around. But im pretty sure Im going to love, kissing him every day, taking him places, waking up to feed him. Hes our baby and I cannot believe HOW much I love him, How much Frank loves him already. I cant believe Im only a few short weeks away... Just one month! ONE MONTH I need to get through, Ahhh that seems so unreal when I think about it, I get these huge flutters in my stomach, I cant believe this is happening , that We did this, That Hes really going to come!...how blessed am I?....extremly.... I couldnt have asked for a better husband, a better family, a better mom. Im excited for this new chapter, Im excited for Frank to be a dad....because he is e v e r y t h i n g I want for my baby and I know hes going to be amazing...

Im 33 weeks....how crazy is that...this is it...this is the ultimate countdown!

bring on 2010!!!!

Is this Nesting?!

so, lately ive been in this super cleaning mode....I mean Ive been scrubbing down, cleaning every possible nook and cranning of our bedroom, bathrooom....EVERYTHING!!!.....not to mention I feel the need to go into the babies room and re fold and organize something at least once a day...could this possibly be "Nesting" ive heard so much about?! that be FANTASTIC!! however my little peanut, needs some more time in my belly, BUT we are almost there...32 weeks and counting....

Last night I relaxed before I crawled into bed...I didnt really feel Carter moving around or anything, but as soon as I shut my eyes he started kicking....HARD! Frank thought this was funny and for me, couldnt fall back asleep for another 2 hours.....I then woke up for my normal 4 a.m pee break, and just as i shut my eyes, I felt a cat lay down on top of me....As i lay there, i thought....I dont think this is my bronx....sure enough I reached out and felt long hair....and it was the cat I Depised, and then heard the familar Hiss.....I then woke Frank up making him take her off me....words cannot describe how much I hate that animal....her name fits perfectly for the little kitty....e v i l.....we all are so lucky that after a year of dissapearance, this cat returned from the dead and showed back up trying to take over the house....not

Wednesday is my doctors appointment...with a sono...my little baby better be posing for his mommy!!! im so excited and even more that my wonderful husband gets to go with me...

Ive been really in the scrap booking mood, and seeing as my pregnancy is in the final stretch i think its time to start scrapbooking all the memories of my pregnancy!, Carter is gunna have a super awesome scrapbook by the time he graduates from school!

I cant believe he is almost here...we are so blessed, I often wonder how delievery is going to go, long or short? Natural or C section? Am I going to be able to get through it without an epidural! I wish it was here, I wish I was just a little closer to my due date...But I know that this baby is coming really soon! and I am so excited to see him...I am so excited to be a mom....

thats all for now

Its begining to look a lot like christmas!!!

So, I wanted snow because all ive been seeing is green grass and I woke up today with ....Snow and lots of it...im done now, I dont want it, Just bring it back for Xmas Eve and day...and then ill take 70 degree weather.....however, all this snow does get me into the holiday spirit!....

So finally, Ive been able to start sleeping again, oh wait let me rephrase that.....I fall asleep late, im up 3 times minimum to pee and finally go into a deep sleep around 6 am and wake up around 10 30....oh I love these sleeping patterns, Its getting harder and harder to get comfortable let alone sleep!...I literally feel like there is a giant bowling ball in my stomach!.....I cant believe Im already 31 weeks, this is definately the home stretch. Final preperations are being mad, Lamaze classes, finishing up baby room, and supplies. Hes gunna be here before we know it!....its crazy to me...I feel like this pregnancy has taken forever, but in reality its flying by....I can remember this summer when I was still wearing my cute little bikini and thinking, "There's a baby in here right?" Because I do NOT look pregnant.....and then the month of August came and I had to start with my maternity clothes....and then bigger and bigger belly....and the scale kept going up......Whats crazy to me is the weight ive gained. For being someone who watched what I ate throughout...( alright im totally no telling the truth) I mean, I didnt always watched, I endulged in multiple fruit roll ups..( its fruit though right?..ha) cookies, chips and you name it...but I didnt really drink soda( welll.b...occasionally but not the caffinated ones) and I definately ate Wheat Bread.....My starting weight was 118 lbs....so far....( this is now when im suppose to gain the most weight...>AWESOME) I now weigh a wopping 170 lbs...this to Frank is hysterically because my tall string bean husband weighs this....to me ...not so funny...( Im investing in Wii Fit after this pregnancy!) Dont worry, im being realistic to the fact that I wont have time to use it....because when my lil baby is sleeping im sure I will be too...or working, Oh well I'll take the extra weight gain and stretch marks any day for a healthy happy baby!.....speaking of stretch marks.....eh actually we'll skip that topic entirely...Im going with they will fade enough when Im done that they wont make me cry any more...hahaha whoever thought being young and pregnant will save you from stretch marks was delisiounal...*oh wait that was me*!

The thing that makes me most excited is just going into his room, Now that its packed full with everything he needs, it really settles in that he will be here in a few short weeks.! Everyday I go through his dresser and take out all his clothes and just envision him in them! its crazy such a big little boy is in my belly already! I def know this baby is going to be loved. Franks brother is sooo excited along with his parents and my parents! How lucky and blessed am I , to bring a beautiful baby into this world with a family with so much love to give!

Throughout my pregnancy , Ive been writing and reading my books. What to expect when your expecting is fantastic....and what is even more crazy is that I love Im almost done with it!!!

So on a serious note, I am SO SO blessed with a wonderful husband. I think back to my WONDERFUL BEAUTIFUL MOTHER who raised both me and my brother on her own and I simply just dont know how she did it. I cant imagine that feeling of being alone, tired, exhausted, scared with no one to help you, no one to talk to. I am so thankful for Frank and this family every single day. Because I know Carter will have both parents to raise him, and Frank would always stand by my side. Becoming a mother has made me realized how Special of a mother God gave me. I love her SO SO SO Much, I couldnt ask for a better one...EVER

Alright...this is the longest blog ever....

I dont even thinks anyone reads this, But its a way to fill eveyone who does in on whats going on~