We went in on sunday the 21st and let me tell you, I was sooooooo anxious and nervous I couldnt handle it... after getting admitted and checked over and over by the doctors, the wait began...They gave me some gel stuff to soften my cervix since going in there, I was only 1 cm 30% effaced and Minus 3 station....not sitting so pretty....soooo I slept, played some Yatzee with Frank.....ate a ton of food before they told me I was allowed only ice chips....and went to bed for the night....Suddenly 4.am him and thats when I knew....This is labor...My contractions were coming on reallllly strong....yet I was still able to breath through them and talk....Doctors came in to check me and still no change....they returned at 9 a.m and I moved up to 3 cm 60 % effaced and still minus 3....that baby wasnt any where near the exit.....so all day of contractions and getting into the night, I started getting impatient...Until.. my mom who was looking at the contraction machine watching it go up and up and me with no real facial expression asked" are you okay"...."your contraction are up to 185....." and then pop ....my water broke...and then it was game time...
Literally seconds after this my contractions were beyond painful..I no longer could talk, breath , or do anything...they were the longest minute of my life....and they just so happened to come every three minutes..if i could explain a contraction with no medicine what so ever in you, it would be someone taking a saw and sawing your bones off lol..after getting checked again around 7pm i was 4.5 cm 90%effaced and still minus 3....Finally my midwife came in, gave me a kiss and hug and said...were going to have a baby tonight!...Music to my ears...
After active labor and contractions were getting more and more intense..the more I wanted drugs...I kept begging my midwife for an epidural and she kept telling me the anethesiologist would be right in.....however.....she never came....
at this point , I had no concept of time but I knew that whatever I was asking for, I wasnt getting...I was getting so frustrated and mad at the fact I wasnt given any medicine....
Finally the midwife and her student came in and told me if i wanted the baby by midnight, I needed to get out of bed....I got into the shower, did squats and rocking stuff for what seemed like 5 minutes, really was an hour and a half...Finally around 11:45, I wanted to push this baby out...the midwife proceeded to tell me that there was no way I was ready, and yet I told her...to check..good thing because I was at 9.5 cm and the baby was right there, all of a sudden People are flying in, scrubs are being put on, the lights for the baby are on.....spot lights, our parents were rushed out of the room and I was pushing...whats so weird to me still...Pushing didnt hurt...it actually felt good....and all of sudden I could feel his head and in a total of 30 minutes I had my beautiful baby on my chest....It was by far the most amazing moment of my life...its true when they say you can never explain it in words how wonderful of a moment that is until your in it..I have never instantly been more in love with something, or my husband in my life.....He was soooo perfect....a beautiful 8lb 4oz 21 inches long baby boy....not quite before midnight..but 12:52 am works :)
I dont know how I would have gotton through the 20 long hours of active labor without Frank...He was sooo supportive and held my hand, rubbed my back, told me to breath and encouraged me every single second..I couldnt ever imagine going through something like this by myself..I really am sooooo blessed in my life...to have such wonderful husband..I dont know what I would do without him....Carter is so lucky to have such an amazing dad....we have such an awesome family.....
Well thats it, summing up 20 plus long hours of the most painful, and yet amazing moments of our life....
