Update*

Its been a while since I've blogged.so I thought that now would be a good time to because my sweet baby boy is napping in his crib.

Nothing much has really changed, except my beautiful baby is growing so much, and I cannot believe tomorrow he will be 11 weeks old. where is time going? The other day he rolled over. I felt like the proudest mama in the world...I loved it...

Still loving life, with my wonderful amazing husband, and my baby boy. I love love love being a stay at home mommy , I just miss Frank so much during the day

I get to pick up my wedding rings today, it feels so good to have them back....

Yesterday was mothers day and Frank did a great job :).....Carter ( Frank)  got me a beautiful locket, that has my birthstone on it....and engraved " 2/23/10 A day that changed the world"...and then a beautiful jewelry box that says 5/09/2010 my first mothers day...I couldnt have asked for a anything more. Then we went to the casino and had a really nice lunch at an italian resturant. We then came home and just relaxed, over all it was the best mothers day I could have ever ever ever asked for. Now I gotta top that for fathers day. It doesnt help that I have the most pickiest husband in the world.

Still loving life...it CANT get ANY better than THIS!

<3

Grudges

I hold grudges...for life

Not the best quality, but its me.....

Laundry

Seriously....I feel like I do Laundry 250000X a day...

I will admit..it feels really good when its all done...

but now Im just sick of it

Random

Things I've Been thinking about lately:

I really love being married
and I really love being a mom....Obviously
words cannot describe how much I am in love my with my little boy...
or my wonderful husband

I really love coupons..I love cutting them out, and I love using them...It makes me feel good that Im saving money when i buy something...

I also really am starting to enjoy cooking..Which I hated doing....

I want to Garden, I want to make a beautiful Flower bed...

I want to reorganize something and have it stay that way

I wish I had a scrapbook room where I could keep all my scrapbook stuff up all the time, I think it would give me such more motivation to scrapbook and be organized because honestly, its just a hassel taking E v e r y t h i ng down setting up, scrapping and then putting away...

I should pack for north carolina...like right now..or at least make a check list

I want a coupon holder

I want Frank to come home soon.

I need to do laundry

Carter is still sleeping

I miss my mom.

and my friends from buffalo.

Im excited warm weather is coming

Not excited for the fact that I will not be participating in swimming in the pool.
its for everyones well being

I need a nap....

or at least accomplish somethings on the list above...

:)

Loosing Weight

I am loosing weight..but its a slow process, and I hate it...

I need to loose about 30 lbs to be a realistic weight

40 lbs to loose to be my pre-pregnancy weight.

I feel as if neither is going to happen..and it totally sucks ass

I want to be skinny and feel pretty again,

I am nor feel neither.

I hate it.

Oh well..

Gotta get on that wii fit and keep hoping and working towards results...

Why could I be that person that pops out  a baby and instantly shrinks to their original size of size zero..?

oh well, Its totally worth it...I have a beautiful baby and i wouldnt trade it for anything

scrapbooking

I want to start Carters scrapbook sooo bad..but with a new born...time is precious and after laundry, showering and cleaning...there is no time left for it...


im gunna attempt to do it right now...by the time i put him down..he will be awake.. I can count on it

:)


My baby is 6 weeks today..i cannot believe it

God Parents

So Frank and I picked our Carters God parents...and we decided on...Kim and Mark . what an easy decision that was. They are such a great and awesome family, and so enriched in love that I could picture any one else being such a huge part of Carters life...

We visited them this past weekend and they met Carter for the first time....it was so much fun catching up..

Mark filled in Carter with lots and lots of wisdom and boy did he listen and laugh..One day when Carter is much much MUCH older , Im sure he will repeat those "words of wisdom to him"

Im excited for his baptism..I cannot wait..its going to be such a special day.

They have been such a huge part of my life for the longest time.

Kim taught me voice/piano lessons for many years...
-Helped me with math homework
- I became Nate and Paige baby sitter
-Took me Camping with them
-summer of swimming parties and cook outs
- Mark taught me to drive
- Gave me endless amounts of advice
- Moved me into my first apartment...( Mark was just as scared as my stepfather..it was in the ghetto)
-Sang/played/video taped Our wedding...
and so much more..
They have been there for me through so much, I cannot wait to see how Carter's life will be greatly enriched by there love.


I think its easy to say how AWESOME they are! and How seriously lucky Carter is.... :)

-wake up-

Do you ever see someone in a situation , or do something that is sooooooo rediciouls over and over again, and you just want to tell them exactly how you feel but cannot? its frustrating seeing them doing stupid things over and over agian....

I wanna yell, "hello, are you compleltly dumb?....WAKE UP ALREADY!!!!"

but again, cannot...

Do you think they know how dumb they are being?...or are they simply in complete denial...hmmmm all these questions I would LOVE to know the answer too..

Oh well...its not my life...and Im completly happy in mine...who knows maybe people say the same thing about me...

- I just dont want to see anyone go...."oh my gosh..what was I thinking..why did I do....( fill in the blank)?..." but I think over the years I learned...no matter what you think or advice you give ,in the end..people are going to do and act any way they want...and live there life based on their decisions alone....

Im just venting...

:)

Peace and Love , Fierce and Love .... ( im only saying that because Tyra said it at the end of her show...I thought it was cute)

Easter

here I am updating my blogs with my sweet little baby sleeping in my arms...perfect

Easter up in buffalo was so amazing..spending the few days up there with my parents was so nice.  I miss them so much and I know they love seeing carter. not to mention the weather was in the 80's so it was soo nice to spend the day out side with everyone.

I also got to see my girls from the warehouse..I miss them more than words can say..

Now its time to do laundry, and finish up cleaning before carter wakes up..hopefully he lets me put him down to finish his nap

"Come Home To Me"

This song is so perfect...It reminds me so much of When we first started, and Its amazing to see in two years where we are now....I love him...
















Give Me more loving than ive ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad


Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not




Make me feel good when I hurt so bad


Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you


I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4


There's only one thing to do


three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you


Give me more lovin' from the very start


Piece me back together when I fall apart






Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends


Make me feel good when I hurt so bad


Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you


I love bein' around you


You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you




I love you




You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you
1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you




I love you - Thanks for "coming home to me"

Loo-Loo

So, basically I think this is the cutest thing in the world, and completely deserving of its own blog. When Carter cries,I mean really cries his bottem lip qivers and after each cry out comes this little looooo- looooo sound, its adorable.end of story.

My Boys

I hate when Carter sleeps all day..I just wanna play with him...
All night he could sleep  that would be acceptable..

I have never been so much in love with anyone in my life...
I love my  boys...

I cannot believe he is gunna be a month old tomorrow...SLOW Down time...I want my baby as a baby for a looonngg time :)

Smile*

carter smiled today...it was hands down the greatest feeling ever!!!

hes also 3 weeks old today...i cant believe it... i love him

Bed Time

I just realized one of my favorite things in the world, Is going to bed and waking up to the same person every single day...

I totally love my life

How Many Hours Are In A Day?

....Every time I write a blog  I wonder if Frank is going to read it, and then I laugh to myself because I can only imagine what goes through his head while reading it... As an English Teacher, my spelling and puncuation must drive him crazy....so for his sanity, I hope he doesnt read them...


I finally got my little man to sleep after his bottle...
And after he peed all over me...

The amount of clothes he goes through a day is insane....but I love changing him and putting outfits on him

So already I have been thinking about what to get Frank for father day....
It makes me so excited even though its months away, Hes just such a great dad I cant wait to celebrate holiday's like this with him...

Im going to buffalo tomorrow, Just for the weekend and the amount of baby stuff I have to bring looks like I'm moving home...its crazy... tomorrow is the first time my step dad will meet baby carter...im so excited..

I love waking up , even in the middle of the night, I love being able to make my little bambino stop crying and when hes all done eating and getting change, snuggling up next to me.. if i wasnt so tired I would hold him all night long and just watch him sleep

I love waking up and being productive.. little things like doing his laundry, cleaning up the house, making the bed...showring... Its precious seconds that I now have that I used to take advantage of. its crazy, I feel like I always have so much stuff to do , every single second that there isnt enough hours in the day.... but its so nice that frank is so helpful when he gets home for work...

Today I woke up to the best text message
" I'm at work safe, Just wanted to say how much I love you and how much of a wonderful mommy you are to Carter....I love you both so much...be safe today"

I get these every single morning when I wake up..
and then on his lunch break he proceeded to tell me

" did you know when I married you, that was the day I promised you I would never ever leave you, and never ever hurt you?"

He takes such good care of me... I love him more than words could possibly describe


I have the best husband
The best marriage
the best little baby
My life couldnt get more perfect

Okay, I have so much to do in such little time :)

Marriage

I Have the best husband in the world....and we just happen to be crazy in love <3
He tells me at every chance I get , how wonderful of a wife and mommy I am....
not to mention he does everything possible to make sure Carter and I are always okay..


he's wonderful...I couldnt ask for a better husband or father to Carter ever....


:)

Life

I love bein a mom

I love my sweet baby boy

I love being a wife

I love my husband...

My life is pretty close to perfect....

I dont think it could get any better than this!

Im so lucky<3

The First Week

So as I'm waiting for my mom to arrive, and I set my little peanut down for a nap, I thought it would be a good time to blog... ( I just had a thought...I hope Frank doesnt read these, because being an English Teacher, my puncuation and spelling or lack there of would make him crawl out of him skin...heheheh)


Anyways, These first week went pretty smoothly I should say....we developed a schedule and a routine..Sunday night through thursday I get the night shift and feedings...and weekends its Franks..even though he gets up with me during the night....:)


Carter is such a good baby, He really sleeps at night, and he goes almost 3 1/2 -4 hours without waking up...Pretty good...hopefully down the road we can loose that 3-4 am feeding....


We just got the professional pictures of him, from the hospital...SOOOO FREAKING CUTE!!! when I have time...( who am I kidding?) I'll scan and put them up... I cannot believe he is Already over a week old!...


more and more every single day I think about how blessed I am to have such a wonderful family. God really did some awesome stuff in my life for sure... 2009-2010 Has beent he most amazing year of my life... I cannot believe I married the Love of my life..and Then we created and gave birth to one the most precious gifts ever!!!.... LIFE COULDNT BE ANY BETTER!!!


I think about all the people who are in situations who dont have help like I do...I couldnt imagine doing this alone, without Frank... I couldnt imagine not having anyone coming home to us every day..Helping, cooking, cleaning, taking care of me and the baby.... Every day I am so amazed at my mom, and how she raised both my brother and I on her own....I can't even begin to imagine....it makes me love her so much more...


everyone said that It would going to be exhausting ....and sleep deprevation was going to sink in soon...well it has..and exhausted is an understatement...I could go to bed the minute frank got home if i could..or wanted to....But...waking up with my little love at 12...3..and 6 a.m is so worth every second of tiredness....




I love being a wife,and a mom...its the greatest feeling in the world!....


I still look at him every day and cannot believe he is mine, that we created him...what an amazing amazing feeling!

20 long hours....

so, its 5:58 in the morning and I finally got carter to sleep after 2 hours of feeding, changing, rocking......I should be sleeping too but i just like looking at him...and thought...well this is a good time to let everyone know how my labor and delivery went....it was long....and painful...

We went in on sunday the 21st and let me tell you, I was sooooooo anxious and nervous I couldnt handle it... after getting admitted and checked over and over by the doctors, the wait began...They gave me some gel stuff to soften my cervix since going in there, I was only 1 cm 30% effaced and Minus 3 station....not sitting so pretty....soooo I slept, played some Yatzee with Frank.....ate a ton of food before they told me I was allowed only ice chips....and went to bed for the night....Suddenly 4.am him and thats when I knew....This is labor...My contractions were coming on reallllly strong....yet I was still able to breath through them and talk....Doctors came in to check me and still no change....they returned at 9 a.m and I moved up to 3 cm 60 % effaced and still minus 3....that baby wasnt any where near the exit.....so all day of contractions and getting into the night, I started getting impatient...Until.. my mom who was looking at the contraction machine watching it go up and up and me with no real facial expression asked" are you okay"...."your contraction are up to 185....." and then pop ....my water broke...and then it was game time...

Literally seconds after this my contractions were beyond painful..I no longer could talk, breath , or do anything...they were the longest minute of my life....and they just so happened to come every three minutes..if i could explain a contraction with no medicine what so ever in you, it would be someone taking a saw and sawing your bones off lol..after getting checked again around 7pm i was 4.5 cm 90%effaced and still minus 3....Finally my midwife came in, gave me a kiss and hug and said...were going to have a baby tonight!...Music to my ears...

After active labor and contractions were getting more and more intense..the more I wanted drugs...I kept begging my midwife for an epidural and she kept telling me the anethesiologist would be right in.....however.....she never came....

at this point , I had no concept of time but I knew that whatever I was asking for, I wasnt getting...I was getting so frustrated and mad at the fact I wasnt given any medicine....

Finally the midwife and her student came in and told me if i wanted the baby by midnight, I needed to get out of bed....I got  into the shower, did squats and rocking stuff for what seemed like 5 minutes, really was an hour and a half...Finally around 11:45, I wanted to push this baby out...the midwife proceeded to tell me that there was no way I was ready, and yet I told her...to check..good thing because I was at 9.5 cm and the baby was right there, all of a sudden People are flying in, scrubs are being put on, the lights for the baby are on.....spot lights, our parents were rushed out of the room and I was pushing...whats so weird to me still...Pushing didnt hurt...it actually felt good....and all of sudden I could feel his head and in a total of 30 minutes I had my beautiful baby on my chest....It was by far the most amazing moment of my life...its true when they say you can never explain it in words how wonderful of a moment that is until your in it..I have never instantly been more in love with something, or my husband in my life.....He was soooo perfect....a beautiful 8lb 4oz 21 inches long baby boy....not quite before midnight..but 12:52 am works :)

I dont know how I would have gotton through the 20 long hours of active labor without Frank...He was sooo supportive and held my hand, rubbed my back, told me to breath  and encouraged me every single second..I couldnt ever imagine going through something like this by myself..I really am sooooo blessed in my life...to have such wonderful husband..I dont know what I would do without him....Carter is so lucky to have such an amazing dad....we have such an awesome family.....

Well thats it, summing up 20 plus long hours of the most painful, and yet amazing moments of our life....

Have I mentioned how lucky I Just seconds after being born...hes perfect

Today is the Day

I cant believe the day is here...im counting down the hours til we go into labor and delivery....Im just sitting here talking to the baby, and cannot believe in a matter of hours...( long hours) he is not going to be in my belly any more...Its so surreal, A part of me is sad that my pregnancy is over, I will miss him kicking me, waking up to his hiccups, and foot up my ribcage....but I know seeing him every day is so much better....41 weeks...I cannot believe, I cannot believe I carried this beautiful baby boy in my belly and now we are going to be a family...that I am going to see his sweet little face soon...It doesnt seem possible...I am SO blessed for this wonderful, awesome life that was given to me... I cannot thank God enough for the bountiful blessings I have recieved each and every day...

Im so anxious to see how today is going to go...Im actually excited for the amount of pain I am going to endure..( I know I know, im saying that now)......Im soooo lucky to have a husband who is going to be by my side every single second making sure I'm okay, and my momma making sure everyone in the hospital is doing there job....

Ive have contractions all morning , how funny would it be if he decided he wanted to FINALLY come on his own?!...not very :)

Today, is going to change our lives for the rest of our lives....I cannot believe this day is here...its so unreal...

The next time I write, we will have our baby boy!!! YIKES!!

I'm gunna be a mom

Im going into the hospital tomorrow night at 6pm..

They are going to start me on some Pitocin where I will get some pretty Wicked contractions...

Within a few hours, I'll be a mom...

Frank will be a dad...

and we will be a family of 3...

HOW AMAZING? I cannot believe my pregnancy is over!

I'm going to miss him being in my belly, and jamming his sweet little foot up my rib cage every morning, and his hiccups he gets 3 times a day..

But I think seeing him growing and raising him, and kissing him every single day will be sooo much better...

I cannot believe we did this, we created this beautiful life...

I'm gunna be a mom tomorrow :)

40 weeks.....and STILL counting

I'm really trying to be impatient here, but I'm getting so frustrated!...

Its to the point im praying for horrible pain just so I know I am in labor....thats how badly I am ready for this baby...

I feel like he is never going to come, and no where near coming...

I dont want to go over my due date..and if I do..I dont want to be induced 10 days later...I think thats cruel making someone go over 10 months of pregnancy...

Im sure everyone who has had a baby is laughing at me right now...I dont care....

My legs are beyond swollen and my skin in stretching to its max...

I don't sleep at night, and I cant stay in the bed because I cry and keep frank up who has to work at 6 a.m.....

I think my doctors are evil....

I read all these people on google who say they're doctors induce them at 39 weeks, 40 weeks...just because they are uncomfortable...it makes me so upset..

If I make it to my appointment on monday...I want to be induced by Friday..end of story...

we will see how that goes...

Im going to make some grilled cheese,and do some pointless jumping jacks....

I feel miserable and sound preetttyyy pathetic....

sorry for the "woah is me" blog today...

I love my baby and so happy he is healthy...but I am done...He needs to come out and stop being stubborn :)

Birthday!

Bronx's Birthday is today....Hes 1 years old...:) still my perfect little kitty....

Tonight he gets a can of Tuna.... :)

Baby Clothes, Cleaning, and Contractions

So, Today I have had this HUGE burst of energy...nothing like I've ever had before...I just Re-organized the baby clothes again today... he's got such cute outfits...I decided In the mornings I want to make my husbands life easier so I organized all of Carters clothes by size and outfit....shirt, pants, and socks...all he has to do is pick one out in the morning....we will see how long it lasts....

Ive never ever been such a neat freak before....I'm going crazy thinking that I will go into labor and our house will be messy, so I clean it top to bottom every day...crazy huh?

Ive Been having on and off contractions... I just wish They would start again soon and be consistant....

Mom

In a matter of days...( or weeks tops) I'm going to be a mom...

It is the most amazing and scary responsibility of my life and I am sooo ready...

I cant believe we created this little baby boy that is currently hiccupping in my belly right now....

I love him...

Wedding Rings...

One of the things I am looking so forward to at the end of my pregnancy, is the day when my wedding rings fit my finger again....

I wear them around my neck, but I really miss wearing them....Can't wait...

Friends

Im thankful for the wonderful people in my life....

Im thankful that I married my best friend in the whole wide world.....

I have these wonderful group of girls I worked with in buffalo that mean the world to me, they are sooooo wonderful...I miss them so much , and so happy we both make an effort to see eachother..not to mention coming to see the baby the 25th..( YES I WILL HAVE THE BABY BY THEN!)

I wish I could read peoples mind. I wish I knew why some people change and are completely different....people who used to be such a big part of your life...are no longer...its sad.

I hate trying to make a "friendship work" when friendships shouldn't be one sided.....efforts shouldnt be made on only one side....and excuses are hurtful....

But istead of dwelling of what isnt there, I think and smile about what once was....Im thankful for my past and the people who made me who I am today....

I am beyond thankful and blessed with my present life and the amazing people that fill it each day....especially my amazing, wonderful husband... I couldnt be happier, and he couldnt make me any happier....along with my wonderful family....

Just feeling thankful today...and I feel as if i need to look more on the positive side instead of always feeling bad about the things  i want, and what i dont have( so selfish of me)....because the amount that I do is soooo great, and I should be beyond thankful for that...

I realize that I cant get everything I want when I want it... Im learning to be more patient and understanding....

any one who knows me , knows I am stubborn and patience is NOT something I have...but im trying...and I think im doing preettttyyy good :)

Any Day Now

Alright, I went to the doctors today, and they said it could be any day now...you know how aggravating it is when someone says , well....It could be any day from today til 2 weeks.....and then if you go past your due date add two weeks on top of it.. that span is quite to much for me... So i decided Im going to try and do some "natural" ways of inducing labor...Im starting to take these supplements the doctors gave me to speed the process up..I read something about Raspberry tea, and then some really crazy stuff Im just not brave enough to try. I am just soooo ready for him to be here.. SOOOOOOO ready to be a mom, The anticipation is killing me!

Hurry up Carter, Its time we meet.....

Bronx

If anyone knows me...I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE my precious kitty bronx...lately he cracks me up...I feel like i am going to be a mother of 2...He is the MOST spoiled cat in the world...

Let me Just start by saying how wonderful of a life this cat has...first....he has 2 huge cat trees that he loves, secondly he has a "best friend" named Indiana (aka vinny) that he does everything with...He has endless amount of acres to roam outside and a nice warm house to sleep in . Every morning he wakes up to a silver tray filled with wet cat food, some mice whenever he decides to hunt and an endless amount of kitty food during the day.....Can you say SPOILED?!

Every since lil bronx was a baby I used to wrap him in a blanket and carry him around... ( something Frank told me cats hate), Now almost a year later he loves to sleep and lay upside down...in my arms of course...Bronx is very much my cat and recongnizes me as his mommy, He tends to follow me everywhere....and if the door is closed for example when i go to the bathroom or in our bedroom he crys outside the door and sticks his cute little paws underneath until i let him in...its really the cutest thing in the world....

Every night when we go to bed I dont let bronx sleep in our room anymore for many reasons...

1.) he sleeps ON TOP OF MY HEAD, FACE and purrs in my ear

2.) He licks my face all night

3.)I dont want him to get into a habit of sleeping with us, because the baby is going to be in our room for a while.....

HOWEVER lately, My bronxy has gone missing at night and REAPPEARING in the middle of my night at 3 a.m....last night we found out where he was....

Bronx now comes up and hides underneath the bed on my side, and WAITS until we are in a deep sleep and creeps up on our bed in the middle of the night...even though that is beyond cute and melts my little heart, it gives me a tad bit of anxiety because I am scared he is going to jump in the bassinet  when the baby is here!

regardless, I love my cat bronx...Sometimes i think wayyy to much, and cannot believe he is going to be 1 year old in a week... :) I cant wait til carter plays with him....he will love bronx just as much as me...

I Still Miss You

I can't believe were going on 4 years....I still miss you, I know your here with me every single day......R.I.P Gram


I STILL MISS YOU
There she was, 5 foot 3, a picture of my mother's mother
She showed me love, and all the ways of God
Her final days were spent in bed then she passed away
I won't forget her smiling face when she left us that night

But I still miss you
All the times we spent together
To hear you talk about the weather
I always prayed you'd get well soon
I wish my prayers came true
I know that Jesus has the answer
And He's way bigger than the cancer in you
But I still miss you

If dreams came true, just one more chance to talk to you
And thank you for the time you spent teaching me the truth
A boy back then, I've grown up, now I'm a man
I can finally understand the things you said to me

But I still miss you
All the times we spent together
To hear you talk about the weather
I always prayed you'd get well soon
I wish my prayers came true
I know that Jesus has the answer
And He's way bigger than the cancer in you
But I still miss you

I need some help to carry on
I need some strength to keep me strong

Groundhogs Day

So, It has been brought to my atttention that groundhogs day is February 2.....little did I forget it was my grandmothers favorite holiday....I shouldnt say "favorite" but it was one of the holidays she enjoyed making fun of..I think it would be extra special if Carter was born on that day....If he is, I know she made all the arrangements upstairs...How special that would be...I miss her so much...I wish she was here for this...I can only imagine the amount of advice she would be giving me, and boy would she be keeping me company, on the phone at least...She was the one person that would never get off the phone if it was possible....

I know she's up there watching over me and my baby...It's strange but I've been thinking about her so much lately...I cant believe its been 3 years, almost 4...I try to picture her face sometimes and its hard, Its hard to stop talking about the same stories over and over again, I dont want to forget her, What she looked like, our memories we had....I hate that the most vivid memory I have is here dying....I cant wait to see her again one day...

On a positive note, I think its pretty special that my Grandpa gets to be a Great-grandpa, how exciting is that, not many people can say that in their life time....

I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life..

I do wish my momma was closer though, I miss her a ton!

Well Time to finish my show....and then attempt bed at 12 30...hopefully my sighing and whimpering doesnt wake Frank up and get his angry.....

until next time....

Up & Down

So here I am...Sunday night...midnight...Frank is snoring....im jealous hes sleeping...because I can't believe how hard it is for me to sit up let alone lay down....My back is aching....My stomach is cramping , and I can't stop crying....It hurts so bad.....I want it to be over, I want to bring my baby home, I want to sleep...I want to start working out and loose the 70 plus pounds i gained...All i keep thinking is that i'm almost done...Im going to be 37 weeks this week...thank goodness...Any day this baby could come and from the symptoms ive been having, I think He will be here Next week...but that is also wishful thinking...I think I WANT him to be here next weekend, and he probably wants to stay in....

almost done...hes almost in my arms!

And Soon You'll be in My arms

I'm Having a baby...I'm going to be a mom....

This is so unreal

its what i've been dreaming about for the past nine months and now, it is in arms reach...

We love him so much and I cant wait to hold our beautiful baby boy!!<3

* Baby* Baby* Baby

So, first i'll apologize to everyone (if anyone) who reads this....Im am sorry that every single blog I write is about my baby....I cant help it...I just love him already so much!...well...I just had another "nesting" moment and decided to organize AGAIN all the baby clothes, by color and sizes...I'm being realistic that after the baby is born it will not be so organized!

I cannot believe I am 35 weeks already!...thats crazy! Carter is moving like crazy and I finally have days where I am able to breath....Its so nice that he decided to drop down a bit and lay off my lungs.... it still feels like I ran a marathon just by walking up the stairs...oh well...

Its u n b e l i e a b l e to think that in 5 weeks...I will be holding a beautiful baby boy in my arms....maybe sooner....maybe a little later...hopefully not later, I cannot wait any more!!!

I hope he's not stubborn and desides to hang out a bit longer than normal...that wouldnt be very nice woud it?

I am sooo excited to finally become a mom, I think its going to be the MOST amazing gift, most amazing moment in my life..I cant believe we made it to the end of this pregnancy, it was a long scary road, but I am so thankful for so many wonderful people in my life.

I often have no idea how Frank deals with me and my many moods...I am so lucky to be bringing a beautiful baby in this world, into such a wonderful family. I am so lucky to have a husband who is by my side no matter what...We are going to be such a happy family, and for that I am greatful!!

Exhausted...what an understatement

Im not sure if my body is preparing me for when my beautiful baby comes home, but....its true...the ninth month of pregnancy is hard...really hard, im uncomfortable, I feel like a whale, I cant sleep at night.let alone cannot breath..Im up 3-4 times to pee, It literally takes all my energy to shift sides during the night, and I have to do that every five minutes...Not to mention, Im awake at the crack of dawn....

Im tired...I just wanna sleep....

I wouldnt be so "woah is me" if i had a baby to take care of....i much rather loose sleep over that..

its okay.only 30 days til my due date....hopefully i can have him sooner :)

I CAN DO THIS!!!

Baby Time?

alright..its official ive started going insane over thinking about when this baby is going to come.... I completely understand the probability that I will have to wait to February to have him come, however how amazing would it be if he came a tad bit early for me?....Im so ready for him, and hes so close to being here Its amazing to me. I cant wait to hold him, to loose sleep over him. Im si ready to not feel like I am carrying a 75lb bowling ball in my stomach....or waddle like a penguin, I was in walmart yesterday walking towards my husband as he started laughing saying how big my waddle was...thank you...We officially have "everything" for the baby....to start at least....now we just wait, and if all goes well.. we will be waiting a few more weeks... ive waited this long, I can wait somemore...I think it would be so much more fun if I could know the exact day..it would be such a better countdown..its hard when there is a countdown to your due date, and then your like well.....technically he could come at "any day" this day......Im rambling...I pretty much feel like doing  n o t h i n g today....and thats what im going to do..nothing. :) because im 9 months pregnant and I can....

On the other side however, its crazy that my due date is just about a month a way..that in a month  I will possibly have given birth to a beauuuutttttiiifful baby boy..

im going to be a mom, how amazing is that!?

I cant wait...im ready....